Sometimes you have to not see things.
You have to not see the odd wrinkle of his shirts at midday or the smudged collars. You have to not see the passion marred skin, the unworn wedding band and the stolen glances.
Sometimes you have to not hear the secret phone calls, the near silent giggles and the hushed proclamations.
Sometimes you have to not notice the secret smiles, the stolen, lustful leers shared from across the table, room and rear-view mirrors.
You have to ignore light touches, the unfamiliar colognes and fragrances and you have to not see the change.
YOU are still in love.
You have to ignore the growing distance, the gnawing silence or the burgeoning unfamiliarity.
You have to ignore the unanswered calls, the late night arrivals, the even later and more frequent meetings and the unexpected weekend-long conferences.
You have to hold hands, smile lovingly, laugh agreeably and you have to cry yourself silently, secretly, to sleep.
You’ll need that.
Better to purge your frustrations, every night, over tear stained pillows and remain pliable than to hold it all in and become untamed, uncontrollable. That way the sky won’t fall.
But what if the sky fell?
What if the earth shook, the mushrooms finally inherited the earth and the wounded got off their knees?
What if the trenches were dug, the regalia bravely worn and the smell of war burned across the atmosphere?
What if you saw it all, heard it all and finally took a stand?
You are in love.
You’re responsible for your happiness. To not see things, to not hear them or smell them and to ignore the signs would be accepting your role in your own unhappiness.
Sometimes you have to risk your life to own your life.
So yes, sometimes you have to not see things.
You have to not see your own defeat, your fears and you have to brave the storm and admit your strength.
You don’t have to go unnoticed in your own relationship.